Turning the tides.

Life's about to get Weird! I've been suggesting (is that the right word?) that something in my life was in-the-making and I can finally talk about it because I'm low-key superstitious and also I didn't want to reveal it just in case the plan fell through which was highly possible. Phew that was a long sentence.

For the past few weeks, I have been going through the process of receiving an interview (MMI style) for a college program related to healthcare. I was recently notified that I was accepted. Life's been a whirlwind. I don't want to discuss too much about the specifics but basically, the interview was fun and exciting (Aside: I miss that part so much. It's like a light switched on and the gears started winding again). I stumbled on a few stations and thought for sure that it would be to my disadvantage, but an acceptance came through!

Anyways, this isn't about going back to school, but rather the fact that I took another leap. I'm all about taking risks, I mean, life needs a few risks to get to good investments. But alas, risk-assessment is what fucks me up the most. It took me one whole cycle of school admissions to determine whether I wanted to get back into it. (That doesn't sound so bad in retrospect) But honestly, it was a dreadful year because I seriously felt stuck in a rut. It was kind of a blessing in disguise though, because in that year of just working in the industry and trying to figure life out, I discovered things I liked and disliked. Don't get me wrong- I'm so so fortunate for even having a job. But I learned, most importantly, more or less of how I envision the rest of my life (or at least the rest of my life in this age range; until I get to the next chapter). So even though I'm happy and glad that I got accepted to said med program, I'm still... searching. I'm thinking of turning the tables on myself.. trying out something different but not completely new.. I'm trying to revisit what made me happy and luckily, it's kind of an old passion, something I delved into way back when I was in high school. There's more math, more data...

I still have some (very short, limited) time until the deadline to accept the program offer and put in my deposit. But I am kind of keen on learning some data stuff. I've always loved math. It was a language that I struggled so much with, but it's one of those babies that I held near and dear even when it wasn't applicable. Even throughout my school years, I always thought to myself "man I miss math". I don't know why I never pursued it or thought about making it more applicable to my field.. but now fuck it, I'll try!